A Thousand Words or More...

I'm still in Norman. UGH.

To put a long story short, I woke up Wednesday with a pounding headache and blood running down my face. I figured that being on a bus for 24 hours and away from the comfort of my bed/apartment would be a bad plan. So I gave up my free week vacation at a resort in Arizona, for a week of boredom and sleep.

After thinking about the events of last weekend, I recall that I hit my head on the trunk lid of my car Saturday afternoon when I was getting my crap out of my car. Now not only did I hit my head then, but I did the same thing earlier in the day when I was putting my stuff IN the trunk of my car to go to my Mom's. So I hit my head in the same spot twice in one day. This is the day I got my first migraine. It all makes some sense now. Basically I gave myself a concussion, which caused my Christmas/weekend with Mom to be hell, and me to loose my awesome vacation with the Pride.

It's probably a good thing I didn't go because just walking around Wal-Mart makes me dizzy and disconbobulated. I couldn't imagine what marching around a field would be like.

Anyway, I'm trying to enjoy my mass amount of free time. As much as I miss everyone, it is kind of nice to be by myself. I haven't had this much time alone in a while. *turns up the music and dances around naked* haha :)

Have you ever felt like everything in your life was out of your control?

yeah. that's how I feel now.

For the last 4 days of my life, I have had no control over anything. I feel like there is something living in my head saying "you won't enjoy anything. ever. again."

I went home to spend the weekend with my Mom and go to family dinner on Monday for Christmas. Both which were shattered by migraines. Yeah that was plural. I spent pretty much the entire day Saturday laying in bed at my Mom's while she took care of me. Sunday we went Christmas shopping but I felt sick and my head was hurting all day. Then Monday right as we were getting ready to leave for family dinner, I had another migraine attack. I spend the entire day of Christmas in a bed with my head lying on a heating pad and throwing up.

So here I am, all packed up and ready to go to Arizona for the bowl trip, and I'm scared to hell that I'm going to have another migraine. My head still hurts from yesterday's migraine. I've spent a lot of today crying because I'm afraid my trip is going to be ruined by these damn migraines.

I thought I had control over my migraines, but apparently I don't.

I
can't
tell
you
how
awesome
it
feels.........

to be finished with that horrid semester of college.

I'm so seriously you guys.